What a Lunar New Year it's been. I finally got to meet the Sams. Not all the Sams actually, the 2 most important Sams left the place before I managed to get there. But what's left was extrememly good fun. I got to meet Darling's 4 uncles and 3 aunties. Yes, it is a big one for me, first time meeting the family and already a big group. Well, I guess kinda managed to handle myself. Haha..
When I first entered the house, everyone looked at me as if I was an alien or some sort, it just suddenly went quiet. Oh ya, it was Sweetheart's Grandma's place by the way. I was wondering where Dearie was as I entered the house first. Although she was so near behind me, it felt that she was so far away. So I did what I do best and just gave everybody a big wide smile and said Hi. And then everything changed from black and white to a colorful, warm family picture.
Shook hands with everyone of them and then Grandma actually gave me a red packet, so cool of her. I got another one from one of the aunties too. The 2nd uncle was the funniest. Such a cool guy, wanted me to drink martel with him so he poured some into my coke. And I swear it DID tasted good. Had a little cheers with him and drank up. 5th uncle was cool too, we were talking about bodybuilding then he felt my left bicep and said not bad. That's for 5 months of training. He's a cool dude. Feel that I really can communicate with them really well. We seemed so pally after a while. The 2nd uncle acted drunk while leaving the house. Had his shoes on and asked where his shoes were. Funny guy.
However, it all comes down to Grandma. I kinda like Grandma, she was trying to entertain me by speaking to me and I really appreciated it. Although we were speaking different languages, we still managed to pass the messages. She is so cool, when I told her I liked the cuttlefish, she insisted I had somemore. Seriously, it was nice cuttlefish. I've never tasted such nice cuttlefish. She asked about my family and all kinds of stuff. We just can't seemed to stop talking. Nevermind, I'll find some time to drop by and buy her some fruits and talk to her.
Found it hard to leave the house as the family was so warm and welcoming. I must go there again. Grandma wants me to have a meal together with her. And I'm sure that will be an unforgetable moment. To be honest, Dearie's Grandma is the only elderly that I feel I can relate to, even with different languages. She's a cool person.
It was a hell of a day for me, really enjoyed it. First meet the Sams, then watch a movie with Baby. Watched Fun with Dick and Jane. Laughed our heads off. Thank You for the beautiful day, Darling, really appreciate it. I love you, Baby Girl. I love you so much.
Wise men say, only fools rush in. But I just can't help falling in love with you.
Can't wait to have our first photoshot dear... Muacks
It's been quite a lunar new year for me, first time celebrating chinese new year attached. It can be a living hell man, literally go crazy as you can't see your Sweetheart for a few days. Today's the first day, visited Mom's side. The aunties there are cool man, really big red packets. Cousin Benedict was an asshole today, shouting at Aunt Helen today. Well, if only he can change his way, got lots of hope in him for me.
Regarding reunion dinner, Sherlyn attend 2 of my family's. I tell you, she was freakin' great. My relatives love her, especially Aunt Helen. Darling was wonderful. Aunt Helen told me today that she finds Sweetheart a nice girl. I was so happy when I heard that. Shows that they appreciate the fact that I've got a freakin' good girlfriend. And mom was telling the aunties about Dearie too. She said that Sherlyn was a good girl that take cares of me, makes sure I study. Darling, I'm so proud of you for being so wonderful during these events. I love you dearly...
I found time to play Basketball these 2 days. Practiced a lot. I just love being with Basketball. Sherlyn Sweetheart, please don't say that you're the same level with Basketball. Of course you're more important to me. But please understand that Basketball is part of life already. It cannot be erased from my heart. Just like we have spent some precious moments together, Basketball and I have too. But I want you to know, I love you the most more than anything else. You're forever my precious. I just can't wait to see you in that white gown...
Woke up kinda early, around 9am but felt so tired that I told Darling that I'll meet her at 12 instead. However, Dad offered to drive me to Baby's place so I was there early and waited for Dearie for a while. After which we went to have our all-time favourite fish soup. Finally got to eat it man, miss it so much.
At about 1pm, we went back to my place as it was so warm to study. Had some precious moments together then made our way towards school. I accompanied Sweetheart till Bukit Gombak and I started playing ALONE. So Basketball and I sweet-talked a little until it rained. Couldn't bear to leave the court so I played another half an hour in the rain.
Reached home at about 6pm to take a bath. Dearie then informed me that we could have dinner together, I was ecstatic. She's such a cutie, last minute needed cot shoes so Mom lent her's to Dearie. We met up at about 915pm. Dearest had Yong Tau Fu and I ate some noodles thing with chilli. It was a nice meal. Any meal with Darling is nice. Shortly after that I sent Sweetheart home.
It was an ok day for me. It was a hard one for Sweetie. Apparently she was pissed off over some bitchy bitch at her A team thing. I'm sure she can handle it, she's capable enough.
Paranoid me.... it's becoming such a headache. Dearie feels that I'm thinking too much. However, the fact is that I have got lots to worry about.
Number one thing on my head is Basketball. How I feel is that I've not become lousier or anything, I've just lost some form and it can be gotten back very easily. I feel that I'm not improving fast enough. I don't seem to feel outstanding anymore. I need to find more time for Basketball too. I have to improve more and more. The ache of not being in the NYP team still bites and it hurts quite badly. I'm not afraid of failure but I am afraid of never suceeding. The though just makes me feel sick. The biggest thing I worry about, I'll never make it to the team in the next 2 years. The truth is.... I'm scared....
Thinking about Dearie happens almost every minute and second. I'm always wondering what to do to please her and how to keep the relationship running. Keeping the relationship running isn't such a big deal as I know the flame will never die off, I swear it will never burn off. I have 200% trust in our relationship. I'm just worried about Darling. So many things to worry about. Other stupid guys trying funny things with her, whether there's anything she doesn't like about me, whether there's anything she wants from me but she ain't saying it, does she still feel comfortable being around my family, is she going hungry on purpose to slim down, is that cockhead irritating her again, is she coping with her projects and work well, and the list could go on forever. I'm not saying that Sweetheart is a problematic girl, I just feel that I should care more for her. I'm worried that I may be caring too much and I may be interferring into her life. I've gotta learn to control myself not to think so much.
Many other stuff to think about. Piano, studies, money, body building, close friends, parents, and many more stuff. This is stressful man. I need the 2 month break soon or I'll need to seek medical attention. Oh damn it.....
Oh ya, NYP Basketball team got into the finals. So happy for them. Good luck to them and hope they beat NTU...
Met Dearie at her place this morning and went for lunch. We wanted to have the all-time favourite XO fish soup but Father-in-Law was there so didn't want to eat there. Dearie wasn't well prepared for me to meet him. He ain't a last minute guy. He has to sit down and think of what to ask me. Some kinda interview to see if I'm good enough to be his son-in-law. So we ended up eating duck rice and noodles.
We then went to have some precious moments together before heading home to change and get ready for dinner. Sweetheart was gonna meet my relatives for the first time. She must have been nervous. I can understand. But if I were her, I would have been freakin' excited man. So cool to meet my Dearest's family. We were the first few to arrive at the restaurant and I introduced her when everybody came. We ate A LOT today, too much to mention. We had sushi, drunken prawn, sharks' fin soup, and other cool stuff. We ate some mango pudding and ice cream for dessert. It was a hell of a meal man.
Mom said we behaved very well just now. Dearie, I hope you feel happy today. It's been 2 months already, how time flies. You're the first girl I ever showed my relatives and I know you'll the last girl I ever be with. If you think you weren't impressive enough today, let me tell you...
You were wonderful tonight.
I love you, Baby.
Let's see....
1. I can't play Basketball like I used to, I'll just suck.
2. However, I'll play Basketball more than 6 hours a day to forget you.
3. I'll most probably give up playing the piano.
4. No more gym for me to prevent myself from getting killed by falling weights.
5. My face would explode with pimples as I'll lose the craving for modeling.
6. Skip school frequently to avoid remembering how we always travelled together to school together.
7. Remain super quiet in class as I may just cry all the sudden.
8. My loudest laugh would just be a light smile.
9. Cry whenever I see chocolate dipped strawberries.
10. Cry whenever I hear Melodies of Life.
11. Cry whenever I hear Canon in D.
12. Have many sleepless nights because of seeing you in my dreams
13. Go paranoid if I ever pass West Coast area.
14. Paint a picture of you as the picture paints a thousand words on how much i miss you.
15. Hug the album of our Neoprints to sleep instead of my Basketballs
16. Throw my laptop away and buy a new one as there are pictures of us on it.
Wow. Very serious, ain't it?
BUT.. I know I won't lose you. I'll do everything to keep you by my side. When there's a will, definately a way. You're my motivation for life. No matter what, we will remain together forever. Because I need you. In simple words, I can't live without you.....
and I know....
You can't live without me too.
I love you Sam Sherlyn.
I felt that I should be writing these stuff down. I want to make myself work towards them. For the happiness of Sweetheart and myself. I'm sure I'm not building castles in the air. I will reach my goals....
...Since I've blogged. It's been a busy week filled with projects and assignments. Still found time to spend with Darling. However, Basketball suffered a little due to the rain. I miss Basketball so much. I wish I had 48 hours a day. I know it won't happen so I'll have to make use of what I have.
In no particular order,list down 3 people you talk to online, 4 people you see at school, 2 teachers, 3 people you love going out with and 3 people in your sms inbox.
It's been a week since I made a jumpshot, feel so freakin' weird. However, the night got better. After a week's break away from Basketball, it gave me the biggest surprise - I was playing even better than before. Made shots from way outside, in my friends' faces, disappearing pass them like nobody's business. This really made my day. Thank You, Basketball, you're my best friend. Love you lots.
Skipped gym training on Wednesday night because Dearie didn't want me to work out with a running nose. She's just so caring. We had fun taking Neoprints. So we were getting her project done at my place that evening and Mom sent her home after that. Sad thing is that she couldn't finish everything by 11.30pm, so I stayed up with her till she finished and printed it for her. Sweetheart's such a hardworking girl. I bet she'll get good results. And we finally had 4 hours of sleep.
Stepped into class 15minutes late for the first lesson and as usual, no one was listening. Made a lot of stupid jokes then we were released at 1.30pm so I got to meet Sweetheart for lunch.
Started my day at 12pm.
First post of my new blog.
1: Marry before 28
It's great to marry young. However, I plan to set at leat 40K for the wedding. Hopefully, I manage to invite the correct people and Darling and I can "earn" back the cost of the wedding. I've gotta work hard to set asise that 40k. Darling wants a nice wedding by the seashore. Most probably at Sentosa. Gonna play Darling's favourite song at the wedding for her. A white grand piano sitting in the sand. Cool, eh? Heard from Dearie that there's lots of hidden costs. So I've got to save up more than 40K? I don't know currently, I'll just set it as a goal and if things change, I'll adjust my goals to suit the current time.
2: Have a Son and Daughter
An age gap of 1 or 2 years would be nice. Dearie and I already decided on the names: Chanel and Valentino. Yes, they are brand names. Lots of expectations for our children. Valentino has to be a Basketball player and I'll groom him to reach national standards. Darling has got plans for Chanel. If I'm not wrong, ballet? Both our children must learn the piano and must aspire to be models. Character-wise, both will be popular in school but they are cool in a sense that people respect them because of their achievements and everyone appreciates their humble and friendly character. Lots of things in common with their parents.
3: Buy a decent condo
Darling wants to live in a condo. Although she doesn't mind living in a 5-room HDB flat, I wanna satisfy her as much as I can. One on a high level where she can breath fresh air after being trapped in a low level house for quite a long time. The condo MUST have the following facilities though: Basketball court, Gym, Room with a grand piano in it, MRT right that the door step.
That's about it. 3 goals are enough to kill me. Really gotta start working hard to secure my future. Gonna do everything I can to satisfy Sweetheart...RUNWAY scheduled at 1:05 AM
Went out with Dearie on Wednesday to take NeoPrints. Very nice ones this time. But we missed out PastaMania because Darling had to meet that michael guy. Releasing my grip on her hand seemed so impossible then. Can't bear to let her go meet someone I don't trust. First impression tells me that he's a flirty playboy despo. I may be wrong but I have the rights to think this way. Sweetheart's description of him makes me think like that. I trust Sweetheart a lot, I know she won't throw herself on other men. However, I can't assure myself that this michael guy keeps his hands to himself. That's my worry. It's not that I'm jealous, oh please. I put my trust in Dearie and I know she will keep her words and I'm the only man in her heart. However Men need assurance once in a while. I was paranoid over the entire thing that Darling and I almost quarrelled. Well, guess I'm a kid inside too.
Finished most of the Management project myself. Don't want to talk about that, just feel that people should have some responsibility to ask for work and not wait like babies.RUNWAY scheduled at 12:32 AM
1. Jamie
2. Charmaine
3. Joan
4. Dr Badri
5. Martin Hung
6. Sherlyn
7. Ricky
8. Ivy
9. Janice
10. Eddison
11. Rhyno
12. HamZah
13. Tillyson
14. Wee Young
15. Alif
So what do you think of number 4?
Funniest Indian I've ever met. Makes Statistical modules so much fun. He's an asshole sometimes because he makes fun of me and Dearie.
How would you feel if number 15 slapped you on your face?
I would feel that he's a hypocript(however you spell that) because that's something he will never do. He's my good friend and there's no reason why it should happen.
How nice is number 6?
Nice? NICE??? She's more than nice.... She's WONDERFUL!!! She's a miracle to me and she makes life so much more interesting and without her, I wouldn't have found out my true identity. My dearest precious, how can I ever live without her? I don't care sounding like a wuss, but how I feel about her is truely hidden from the outside world and only She and I know our feelings for each other. Nothing can break us apart. Nothing can tear my love away from her. Literally nothing. Nobody and nothing can. Half my world is for Basketball, the other huge half is for her. She can expect my 100% when it comes to her time. I just love her too madly, truely, deeply. With her beside me, there's nothing I want even more than her.
Honestly, if number 8 met with an accident, what would you do?
She's a good friend of mine. I'll send flowers and prayers for her. Make the effort to visit her at least once a week. She's older and more matured than me. I value the lessons she gave me. A dragon tattoo reminds me of her as she has got one on her back.
What sport would you play with number 12?
I'll play Basketball with him because he sucks at it. MUAHAHA
What if number 1 got a boyfriend?
I'll be glad for her because she'll be damn lucky to find one due to her height of more than 175cm.
Do you hate number 9?
No way. She's my close classmate and she hears my problems out. I'll be there for her if she needs me too.
Will 13 and 7 make a good couple?
Never. Number 7 is not gay. However, Number 13 is a despo so he may fail in girls because he doesn't have a way with them and thus may decide to turn gay and woo number 7.
Would 14 one day kill you?
How would I know? Would he be so ungrateful to kill me after I thought him all those body building and girl tackling tricks? He's got more brains than to kill someone.
Who do you like more? 3 or 10?
Tough question. Actually no preference would be my answer. Both are my good friends and I'll treasure the both of them.
Get five people to do this thing
Reading my Sweetheart's one is good enough for me.. I LOVE YOU, SHERLYN!!RUNWAY scheduled at 12:04 AM
Hit the gym last night and worked out my chest and biceps. Was in a gloomy mood and therefore the strength just wasn't there. Dropped 60kgs down on my heart. Yea, it hurted a little. James was there to help me out though, so it wasn't so bad. Anyway, didn't have a good workout but my muscles hurt even after 24 hours. Feels like breast cancer sometimes, but it's a good sign. Means it's growing. *Raises eyebrow rapidly*
Had a little fight with Sweetheart yesterday. Maybe I should use fight, we're adults now so we had a little disagreement. Nothing big, it was settled in a few moments. So glad I had someone like Sherlyn, capable of handling crap like no one else can. Thank You, Dearest, you're the best.
Haven't seen Darling for a day, freakin' miss her after what happened last night. It's alright, gonna see her in a few hours time. Just can't wait!
So apparently the plan for tomorrow is to have lunch, wait for my lesson to end, then go take our all-time favourite - NeoPrints! Already thought of a few poses to try out tomorrow, Dear's gonna love it! Then after 3pm I've got to.... leave, she's meeting her long time friend, Michael. Am I jealous? Oh please, don't make my toes laugh, the nails are coming off! What's he compared to me? He may be rich but so what? Just a rich dude, ain't talented like me, acts like a wuss with girls, thinks that buying girl's time with gifts and meals is romantic, flirts so much that he dumps his fingerprints on so many girls... I don't care whether he's a model or commando boy, he's ain't half of what I am. Don't mean to be mean but, guys should stick to one chick, shouldn't they?
Oh man, gotta finish up the Oral Comm Presentation by tonight. What a busy day, gonna take a bath and eat dinner. So bloody tired.
I love you, Sherlyn!RUNWAY scheduled at 9:20 PM
Thursday was cool. No projects for us so we went to have dinner at Pasta Mania. I ate my favourite Ham & Sausage Baked Rice and Darling had Pizza. Delicious, oh ya, the only thing I eat at Pasta Mania is Ham and Sausage Baked Rice. I refuse to try anything else, I'm a fussy boy. We then made our way home and slept at 9pm, a long time since I've slept so early.
Today was even more cool. We were energetic for the day and had a happy time together joking around. Sweetheart can be crazy at times, laughs for no apparent reason. But she's just adorable. Sometimes when I look into her sparkling eyes and she smiles at me, I just feel like hugging her in my arms and never let go. She sparkles brighter than a Destinee diamond.
Training was tough today and as usual James would torture me. I love being tortured in the gym though, the results are EXTREMELY worth it. More people at the gym are commenting that I'm getting bigger and my cutting is more obvious. All that training helps big time. Got many people to thank for teaching me the techniques and secrets. I didn't expect so much response regarding my body. James is the number one reason for it. He's been so much help. I've definately got to repay him one day.
Looking forward to Basketball Training tomorrow evening... Just can't wait... I miss Basketball A LOT!
I miss you too, Precious.....RUNWAY scheduled at 1:11 AM
Was feeling freakin' tired on the way home. The journey was long and boring, hate it to travel home without Dearest to accompany me.
Got home at about 3.30pm and played an hour of piano. Slacked around for a few minutes then made my way down to the Basketball court. Not many people today so just practiced my shots. My shooting from beyond the arc is improving, but my stamina ain't godd anough though. I get tired easily after shooting a few shots, so I've got to work on that. Anyways, a little kid got bullied on the court today. He kinda cried, and he's 13 years old. Come on, man, you don't cry in public when you're 13 years old. So I kinda comforted him and "taught him how to be a man". Don't laugh, I told him logical stuff.
Went home at about 8pm to wash up and waited for Darling's call. Meanwhile I ate mom's beautiful Sheperd's pie. Met Dearie at about 9.45pm today then went to play some Sims 2. I finally met her dad, shook hands with him. Well, he didn't look as scary as I thought. He had a big stomach though.........
Sweetheart, I know Paris is gonna be a good experience for you. It's gonna add more stuff in your resume and you can explore new stuff. I really want you to go. I swear I'll wait for you. I just love you too much. It will be hard but do what's right. I feel that Paris is the right thing. I will miss you. I just hope Paris doesn't come too soon.......
Can't bear to be apart....
It just hurts....RUNWAY scheduled at 1:21 AM
Made my way to Boon Lay CC to meet Liang. Long day ahead, great weather for Basketball. Took a few shots before Heng and Rhyno arrived. Started out great! Was hitting jumpshots from beyond the arc.
We then walked to HongKah East CC to find some opponents to play with. That was when the hell began. The four of us kinda screwed up the offense and everybody was confused or should I say refused to pass. So we lost. That was it, one match and we left the place, too many people lining up to play. We'll have to wait at least half an hour before we get our turn.
Didn't really matter to me much. So we returned to Boon Lay to play some 3 on 3. And the same thing happened, screwed the offense. Heng wasn't passing much. Had many open looks but didn't get the ball. Too bad for me. I was freakin' tired, tired enough to actually let Liang score against me a few times. I can't believe it, he doesn't get pass me easily in the past. My legs were just too tired. Have been training over my limit for the pass few days.
I then left with YaoDong at 4.30pm, went home to take a shower, played a little bit of piano, and made my way to the gym. Was feeling very down in the gym, because of what happened on the Basketball court today. Vented my frustration on the weights. I was on the verge of cramps during each station but I just forced myself to go on. Tortured my chest, bicep and stomach for the day and I was done.
I can't understand why I played like that today. Was it because we've not been playing together for a long time? Was it because I was too tired? I can't control what they do on the court. I've got to step up sometimes. Sometimes I find myself rather silly by giving up the ball to my team mates when they aren't making shots. Maybe I should learn to be more selfish? In order to do that, I've got to train harder to be more efficient.
So why do we fall?
SO THAT WE CAN LEARN TO PICK OURSELVES UP!
It's been a bad day.
I miss you, Sweetheart.
I feel my eyes well up when you ain't by my side.
Guess I'm.... stuck with you.
So glad I am!RUNWAY scheduled at 11:18 PM
Hope that I can post more frequently.
I love You, Sherlyn... Very very much...RUNWAY scheduled at 3:12 AM
