Parents, parents, parents. What a wonderful mind they have. So wonderful that even my intelligence can't drill a hole into and understand one bit of it. Maybe I've never been in their shoes. Or is it most parents get a permanent head damage after having kids?
Actually, I do know some stuff. Sometimes parents want to show their love and concern for their kids but they don't know how to go around doing it. And in the end everything goes chaotic for the kids. And they simply think that they've done a great job and feel so fucking good about themselves. Wonderful.
Guess this trend exists in her family. Some tell me that it's a lie, loving family like this won't treat their children like this, she's just making things hard and trying to break up. Some tell me there are such unreasonable beings in the world. Some tell me that she's not being strong for me. The way I see it, definitely a way once a will. No parent can send their children overseas without the child's signature. NO fucking way. After that it all depends on how strong the kid is. Are you going to suffer for nothing? Are you going to give up on everything? Things like this question your love ones on how much they mean to you. Are you going to fight for them?
I ever questioned myself: Why not get another girl?
I know that if i set my eyes on a girl, I'll just work my magic and she's mine. That's my level of confidence. I can always get a sexier, hornier, wealthier, funnier chick who has got an open family to welcome me with open arms. So many of these girls on the streets nowadays. I choose to go for the negative side of this question. I'm just strong in my relationship. To just let go is a complete waste. All the shit I went through will mean nothing already. Why let myself be stressed and bothered over her family problems? It's pulling you down. I'm so sorry because I'm no weakling.
It's time I be strong. Able to pick up, able to let go. Rock hard confidence is what I shall aquire in the next few days.
Just this afternoon a sudden burst of agony entered my pathetic little heart. I was weak. I couldn't take failures. Burst into tears. Parents got so worried for me. And then I thought, I shouldn't be crying, I should be strong. If my girlfriend chooses to be weak then why should I? If 2 parties are weak, nothing can be accomplished. Well, it did bring bright rewards. Everything was back to normal, well, ALMOST normal....
This is the new Gerald: Quiet, keeps to himself, unapproachable but at the same time strong, confident and faithful to his loved ones and friends. I don't care if i'm treated unfairly, because if you mean nothing to me, nothing you do will shake me.
I hope you guys like the new me....
