first up... 10pm.. she finishes work and her fone apparent died or something so she cant be contacted.. tat's all right... so i'm like the bf and it's 1130 already and there's still no sms from her that she's home.. so by nature i'll get fucking worried right? yea so i did.. kept calling her fucking fone but it's still off. i tot some mat raped her or something. so i got sweet gwen to help call her house to check if she's home.. no answer! power? getting better.... den at 12mm, she sms me that she's with her malay gf... u start work at 9 the next fucking day.. u gotta wake up at 6am n u're meeting ur malay gf now.. wad time do u reach home? 1230am.... okay fine...

den she starts doing some stuff on the internet... 1am.. still not aslp.. okay.. so i asks.. not slping? n she went like.. u also not calling me... so it's like i gotta call u before u go to slp? how dependent is that man? i noe she has a while lot of explanation for that but sorry, i'm not interested to listen... enough excuses. u could have answered something like.. are u gonna call me so that we can slp together? or maybe something like.. i'll wait for u to slp too k? wad happened to all that sweetness man.... wtf.

so now.. she's like.. are u going to call me? every damn time she says that after we have a cold moment.. i would ask.. do u want me to call u? here's the reason y.. u noe u just said something wrong.. u noe u just put up a defensive wall higher than china's and u're asking me whether i wanna call u? as sensitive u can get, try being sensitive about other ppl's fucking feelings as well okay. after all ur denying and excuses and defensive statements, hu would wanna talk to u? not even think abt picking up the fone n dial ur number!

like i've said.. i noe u're sure to have some kinda defensive stand for wadever i've just said.. it's normal.. i've been going thru all that crap.. i dun wanna fight abt this.. i dun even wanna fucking talk abt it..

but i mean.. wth.. NOBODY reads this right? so.. fuck it.